The difference 5 months can make
It’s been a week since I’ve gone off Yaz and I couldn’t be better. Life is fun and happy again and isn’t driving me bat-shit insane. I’m sure my bouts of depression while on the pill were not all that bad in reality, but I’ve never felt so depressed for an extended period of time. Normal every day things were suddenly excruciating. Going to work, for example. Yes, I may not like having to work every day, especially on Mondays when I know we have to work late, but I have accepted this. I have to work and I really rather enjoy it most of the time. One Monday I was just soo depressed from having to be at work that I sat at my desk and cried. I was really starting to worry about myself.
Everything has fallen into place. Sometimes I stop for a minute and realize just how different life has become and that I am only a little bothered by the outcome of certain situations. I know it’s only May, but I think of 2008 as the year everything stopped being so fucking complicated. Meeting Shawn had a lot to do with it, if I hadn’t god only knows what I’d be up to. Probably just a whole lot of being alone. And angry.
I dunno where I was going with this. I really just wanted talk about all the difference he’s made in my life, in more ways than just by being here, but it all comes out too cheesy and you know, here at kelleyroo.com, we don’t do too cheesy. (haaha, right)
I just love him and I’ve never felt anything so real before.
May 24th, 2008 at 2:18 pm
May 24th, 2008 at 2:27 pm
Anything that is not natural is wrong. Especially birth control. It is just not natural to trick your body into thinking it is pregnant, so that you don’t get pregnant. I am glad you are off of them, they just aren’t good for you. =-)
May 24th, 2008 at 2:27 pm
So now that you feel better, are you going to come visit?!?
May 24th, 2008 at 3:08 pm
@Jen, yes I hope to get back to our regularly scheduled program. I feel so much better.
May 24th, 2008 at 6:51 pm
Id like to find something so real instead of so addicted to heroin.
May 25th, 2008 at 8:05 am
Good for you. Seriously, GOOD!
May 26th, 2008 at 9:07 pm
girl!
if you’d only read my blog post about that shit a month or 2 ago. yaz was making me suidical. i tried mircette, ortho tri-cyclen, ortho tri-cyclen lo, loestrin 24, and yaz. yaz was by far the worst. i quit all of them and no more random bouts of depression, crying 12 times a day over nothing, feeling like shit 24/7, horrible thoughts, panic attacks. granted, i still deal with my own issues from time to time and have my depression that comes up (usually around that time of the month anyways) but good lord life is amazing without that shit.
i’m trying to find a birth control without estrogen. they make them but they require you take them at the EXACT same time every day, at least that’s what i’ve read so far.
anyway, i’m glad you found out what i did
it’s lovely ain’t it??
<3
June 1st, 2008 at 11:04 pm
Honestly, I wonder if when I was on Yaz, it was affecting me more than I realized. I know it had some affect on me but this just makes me glad, again, that I’m off.
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