It’s been a week since I’ve gone off Yaz and I couldn’t be better. Life is fun and happy again and isn’t driving me bat-shit insane. I’m sure my bouts of depression while on the pill were not all that bad in reality, but I’ve never felt so depressed for an extended period of time. Normal every day things were suddenly excruciating. Going to work, for example. Yes, I may not like having to work every day, especially on Mondays when I know we have to work late, but I have accepted this. I have to work and I really rather enjoy it most of the time. One Monday I was just soo depressed from having to be at work that I sat at my desk and cried. I was really starting to worry about myself.

Everything has fallen into place. Sometimes I stop for a minute and realize just how different life has become and that I am only a little bothered by the outcome of certain situations. I know it’s only May, but I think of 2008 as the year everything stopped being so fucking complicated. Meeting Shawn had a lot to do with it, if I hadn’t god only knows what I’d be up to. Probably just a whole lot of being alone. And angry.

I dunno where I was going with this. I really just wanted talk about all the difference he’s made in my life, in more ways than just by being here, but it all comes out too cheesy and you know, here at kelleyroo.com, we don’t do too cheesy. (haaha, right)

I just love him and I’ve never felt anything so real before.