It’s aLLLLLLLIVE!

Holy cow, dude.

Work has been kicking my ass for the past couple weeks which is why I have been absent around these parts. But don’t worry it’s all over now, and I can resume my already half-assed blogging.

Funny how I still don’t really have anything important to say. Why is that, is my life so full of work and other extreme dullness?

I’m still waiting on forms so that I can file my tax return, and so help me God when I get that money I am stocking UP on supplies to start my jewelry makin’. I cannot wait, I’ve been reading books, researching on the web… everything I can find to figure out how to do this because somehow I became obsessed with it. I will be sitting on the couch with Shawn, looking deep in thought and he’ll ask me what I’m thinking about. I feel like such a douche when I say “jewelry” but I just CANNOT help it, I am so eat up with it. I don’t even think it will cost a whole lot to get started but I guess I just don’t want to feel like I’m spending money on it that could go toward other things.

Amanda, my previous roommate, is finally out of my house. I won’t lie and say that what happened to us does not sadden me in the slightest, but really? I feel good for standing up for myself, finally. I gave her plenty of time to get her shit together and actually pay me but really I just gave her more time to come up with excuses. Then the tmobile thing happened and it was just too much, I couldn’t take that. No way, I’m not going to allow myself to be someone that people continually walk all over simply because they know they can and that’s exactly how this felt. She experienced the Paul situation, she knew how bad it got and how rotten I let someone treat me.

If I learned anything from being with Paul for two years, it wasn’t how to deal with a drug addict. I never figured that one out. I didn’t learn how to help someone get clean simply by loving them because that certainly didn’t work. It really had nothing to do with love or drugs at all, but mainly that people will fuck you over. Especially when you love them because that is when the opportunity is greatest. You can’t think that people are going to change or that they’re not going to do you wrong just because you love them and you thought they loved you.

People are evil.

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