I don’t know when I lost complete grasp of you. I always believed that we ended up together for a reason. You were gonna help me and I was gonna help you. You are the complete opposite of me. You know everything about everything down to the tiniest detail. You are so outgoing, you will talk to a complete stranger. You will ask anyone for help. You understand my feelings. I feel like you know me to my core. You were so perfect for me.

Had I known where we were going to end up, I would have done things so much differently. I’m sure you’ve heard that many times, and even worse, it doesn’t fix a thing. The damage here has been done.  While I know it will take me a long time to recover, I am terrified that you never will.

If your family knew what was happening to you, it would break their hearts. How could you ever do that to them? I am only one person who can only mean so much, but you are very blessed to have those people in your life. I would have loved so much to be a real part of that.

I say these things with all sadness and anger aside. I know that with time it will get easier and I will slowly accept it, but I will continue to have hope for you and I will keep our memories always.

Looks like things were rough. I never gave this to him. We didn’t last much longer anyhow.

Filed in Paul, Relationships on Wednesday, January 30, 2008 ·