I am still very angry and bitter about the whole Noah ordeal and if I see him out in public somewhere I think I might hurt him. I know it’s not worth being bothered by, and I really couldn’t care less if he existed, but I guess I’m just mad that people do these sorts of things to people. And for no reason, absolutely no reason at all. That’s fucked up man.

It also continues to anger me because now I can’t go out with my friends if they’re hanging with him or even on his side of town. It fucking sucks. I didn’t do anything wrong, I shouldn’t have to be held back because he makes shitty decisions. I’ve been nothing but an honest geniuine person and OF COURSE I get punished for it, yet again.

In other news apparently it’s that time of year to be in love with me. A friend of mine decides he’s in love with me about once a year, generally around this time. It’s just silly. I love him and everything cause we’ve been in each other’s lives for quite some time now, but it’s just weird how one minute someone can feel so strongly for you and the next not so much. It’s flattering though, at least… but I’m sensing a pattern here, it seems to repeat with every guy I come across.

What exactly is it about me that guys just fall so in luuuurve with at first, but then after a while I’m not so great anymore? I mean, I know I’m the shit, I don’t doubt that in the slightest. And modest too! But it just gets frustrating, I don’t believe I have any super annoying habits that would send someone running, and my personality doesn’t really change. So what could it be… is it the alcohol?

:wink:

I guess I shouldn’t act like it’s some epidemic, I maintained a healthy relationship (at least the feelings aspect) for over two years, with someone who loves me just as much today as he ever did. Maybe it’s not just me, maybe I just attract a majority of headcases who don’t even know what they want from life, much less what they want from me.

Filed in COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN, Daily, Feeling, Love, Relationships on Monday, December 17, 2007 ·